I honor his memory by pausing to reflect on the incredible joy that he brought in to my life in the twelve years that we were together. The simple delight he took in being in nature, snuggling in my lap, playing with his catnip toys and running all the neighbor dogs and cats off the property still makes me smile and yearn to hold him. There are endless memories that I'm so very grateful for, but that also continue to make my heart ache for him.
How to let go? Feelings of guilt and grief still overwhelm me... This process, this journey is a tough one.